HOW I FEEL NOW

I CAN NOW SAY THAT I DONT KNOW WHAT TO SAY!! IT SEEMS LIKE EVERYTIME I PUT MY TRUST INTO SOMEONE THAT I COME OUT ON THE EMPTY HAND! SO HOW CAN I CHANGE THAT WELL I COULD LIVE MY LIFE ON THE SAFE SIDE AND NOT PUT TRUST IN ANYONE AND SPEND MOST OF THE TIME JUST NOT GETTIN CLOSE TO ANY ONE BUT THAT WOULD GO AGAINST EVERYTHING THAT HE TAUGHT ME AND EVRYTHING THAT HE HELPED ME(LIFELINE) BELIEVE IN... SO WHAT IS THE NEXT STEP CAUSE IM LIKE YOU I DONT KNOW WHAT IT IS BUT IM SURE LOOKING FORWARD TO IT!!