I SEEM TO BE HAVING THE WORST 3 WEEKS OF MY LIFE!! ITS LIKE I HAVE BUILT A WALL CAUSE I HAVENT REALLY HAD COMMUNICATION OUTSIDE OF SCHOOL IN FOREVER... I FEEL LIKE I CANT DO ANYTHING ABOUT WHAT THE NEXT 18 YEARS OF MY LIFE WILL BE LIKE... I AM GETTING SOOO STRESSED OUT ABOUT COLLEGE AND GETTIN AWAY FROM MY DAD THAT I SEEM TO HAVE FORGOTTEN ABOUT GOD.. IT SEEMS LIKE I DONT REALLY REALIZE WHATS GOING ON OUTSIDE OF ME... I AM SUPPOSE TO BE A LEADER IN MY COMMUNITY AND THIS WEEK I FEEL LIKE ALL I HAVE DONE IS BE A FAKE AND I AM SOOOO SORRY. I TEND TO MAKE THINGS LOOK GOOD WHEN THEY ARE REALLY BAD SO I START TO LOOSE SLEEP OVER THE LITTLE THINGS CAUSE I FEEL LIKE I CANT DEPEND ON ANYONE FOR ANYTHING AND THAT IS ALL I CAN DO RIGHT NOW....I NEED TO DEPEND ON MY DAD TO TAKE ME TO OHIO STATE AND I NEED TO DEPEND ON MY RECRUITER TO GET THEM TO RE-EVALUATE I NEED TO DEPEND ON GOD TO TAKE CAREOF ME.... BUT YOU ALL KNOW THAT IT IS SOOO HARD TO DEPEND ON PEOPLE THAT HAVE ALWAYS SAID THEY WERE GONNA DO STUFF(MY DAD) AND NEVER DO IT.....YOU START TO FEEL LIKE THERE IS NOTHING THAT YOU CAN DO OUT THERE EXCEPT SIT AND WAIT... AND I AM NOT THAT KIND OF GIRL.... I NEVER SIT AND WAIT I ALWAYS NEED TO JUST GET UP AND DO IT ON MY OWN.... BUT THESE ARE SOME THINGS THAT IS ON MY MIND AND I JUST HOPE THIS NEXT WEEK WILL GO BY VERY WELL AND THAT I WILL FEEL MUCH BETTER!!!!! I LOVE YOU GUYS THANKS FOR READING MY BLOG !!!!!