THE MASK/ AND WHEN IT COMES OFF

SO YOU THINK YOU KNOW SOMEONE,.... THEN ALL OF A SUDDEN WHAT YOU THINK THAT YOU KNOW IT NOT THAT AT ALL.... IT IS ACTUALLY SOMETHING ELSE...... COREY AND D.C HAVE RECENTLY BEEN TALKIN ABOUT TO LIFELINE AND OASIS ABOUT YOUR FRIENDS AND SURROUNDINGS AND WATCHING... MARK BEESON ALSO SAID"PLANT YOURSELF IN NEW SOIL" WELL I AM COMMING TO FIND OUT THAT MOST OF THE PEOPLE THAT I THOUGHT I KNEW I REALLY DONT... AND I AM ALSO COMMING TO FIND OUT THAT WHEN IT COMES TO ME NOT BEING THEIR FRIEND ANYMORE I AM AFRAID.... ITS LIKE THIS THING WHERE YOU THINK YOULL BE ALONE FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE IF YOU DONT HAVE THAT ONE BADD FRIEND WELL..... I AM STILL CONFUSED ABOUT THE FACT THAT I AM REALLY SMART(NOT THE CONFUSING PART) AND MY FRIENDS REALLY ARE NOT( THE CONFUSING PART, ALSO MY FRIENDS AT PENN IS WHAT I AM REFERING TO) AND I REALLY AM NOT A PERSON WHO CAN PUT UP WITH THE UNEDUCATED BUT I SEEM TO BE TRYING AND LOSING MY PATIENTS ALOT..... LIKE I GET UPSET WHEN SOMETHING THAT I FEEL IS A STUPID ? COMES UP AND I HAVE TO ANSWER IT ..... I FIND MY SELF THINKIN WHAT WOULD JESUS DO BUT THEN THAT I AM NOT JESUS..... AND I CANT REALLY JUST SAY SHUT UP THATS A STUPID ? CAUSE THEY REALLY DONT KNOW THE ANSWER TO THAT ?.............. SO AM I A BADD PERSON BECAUSE I CANT STAND UP AND SAY THAT I DONT WANT THEM AS FRIENDS , OR AM I ONLY HURTING MYSELF FOR WHAT I AM PUTTING UP WITH!!!!! I KNOW THAT GOD IS FORGIVING BUT I ALSO AM WHEN THE TIME IS NECESSARY, BUT I FIND MYSELF WONDERING ABOUT LITTLE THINGS THAT I REALLY DON T REALLY UNDERSTAND...... AND I REALLY WISH THAT WE WOULD HAVE HAD LIFELINE SO I COULD ASK COREY OR D.C OR EVEN BROOKE THESE QUESTIONS, BUT NO NEED TO LIVE IN THE PAST NOW... . IF YOU COULD HELP ME OUT GREAT AND ITS REALLY APPRECIATED..........