MY LIFE

I TEND TO NOT UNDERSTAND THAT MY LIFE IS WHAT I MAKE IT... AND LATELY IT SEEMS EVERYONE HAS BEEN TRYING TO TEACH ME A LESSON ABOUT WHO I AM AROUND.... NOT ONLY DID IT COME UP IN REGULAR CHURCH BUT ALSO IN LIFELINE WHICH IS STUDENT MINISTRY! I WAS LIKE MAN, AS I AM SITTING NEXT TO A PERSON THAT I THINK IS THE GREATEST PERSON FOR ME TO BE AROUND RIGHT NOW, MY LIFE IS ALL MESSED UP I HAVE A FEW WRONG PEOPLE IN MY LIFE THAT NEED TO NOT BE IN MY LIFE AT THIS TIME... THEN I HAD WHAT MY GOOD FRIEND JASON CALLS A SPIRTUAL MOMENT WHERE I REALIZED MY WRONGS AND THEN MY RIGHTS.... THAT ENTIRE WEEK WAS AN EMOTIONAL/SPIRITUAL WEEK FOR ME.... I WAS ON THIS EXTREME HIGH AND IT FELT LIKE I COULDNT COME DOWN THEN ALL OF A SUDDEN MONDAY OF THE NEXT WEEK CAME AND I WAS EXTREMELY LOW LIKE I WAS GETTING DEPRESSED OR SOMETHING THEN IT WAS LIKE MY WHOLE WORLD THAT I HAD BUILT FOR ME HAD FALLEN AND THEIR WAS NOTHING I COULD DO ABOUT IT... THIS ENTIRE TIME PERIOD IN MY LIFE WAS LIKE AMAZING YET SCARY, THEN I HAD TO PUT ON A FAKE FACE IN FRONT OF MY OASIS GIRLS JUST SO THAT THEY KNEW THAT I WAS IN GOOD STANDING TO TRY AND HELP THEM WITH WHAT MAY BE A CRISIS IN THEIR LIVES AT THAT TIME........... FOR THE WHOLE WEEK I WAS BEING FAKE AND THE GOOD THING WAS THAT NO ONE KNEW EXCEPT FOR ME AND I WAS LIKE FEELING THAT EVERYONE KNEW WHAT I WAS GOING THROUGH...... LIFE IS AMAZING AND A GREAT THING TO HAVE AND HOLD ON TOOO..... I COULDNT IMAGINE IT WITH OUT GOD REALLY!!!